Changes shouldn't be made

While everyone is enjoying their Super Bowl games I'm enjoying Desperate Houswives and some self pampering. Nails are now painted and soon hair will be done for tomorrow. Over the weekend I have realized that I miss my old life, and by that I mean the times when I had friends to hang out with an boys to crush on. Now I seldom socialize and boys are totally out of the picture. So what do I need to change? Pretty much everything. Maybe it is the combination of absent self confidence and lack of social skills which both seemed to have vanished over the past year or so. I guess it could also stem from the failed relationships and failed attempts at a relationship and the multiple failed friendships. It used to all come so natural and now here I am spending every weekend alone and turning down to 1 or 2 friends that DO ask me to do something. So here are the 2 things I will try to change that I will attempt to be making:

1. Just say yes. I will not be allowing myself to say "no" every time to every thing. Even if I may not be in the mood for it I should just go do something with someone. That is the only way I will be making friends because sitting in my house on tumblr isn't really working. Granted, I won't be saying yes every time because we all know I love time alone and time to sleep.

2. Wear actual clothes to school. Maybe, just maybe, if I don't look like a homeless depressed bum people at school will talk to me. I have given up all attempt at looking descent over the past couple weeks and the few people that I did talk to at school, have distanced themselves. Now I don't think this is purposeful but it happens for sure and so if I put on a pair of jeans and an OK blouse then I hope to make some progress.

I guess its all stressing me out now because my mom is on my back about a boyfriend and let's be honest, after the last guy I dated I probably shouldn't be allowed to date anymore. Since my mom is in the dark about all that jazz, she is constantly pushing me into guys and awkwardly making moves for me which I should be able to do on my own. I don't need a wing man here.

xoxo