I know I'm doing something wrong. Do you ever get that feeling? I can sit around and "know" all I want, but honestly I just haven't had the time or energy to figure it out. I've made amends with the people I wanted, and I feel good about it. Those friendships will never be what they were, but I'm not upset about that because the time I got to spend with those people. One thing I won't do though, is let someone get to me with things they say because they are too little to hear me out. You said you wanted an apology, well what do you think I want to talk to you about? I'm understanding, and forgiving, and try my best to do the right thing, the problem is that I don't do it fast enough for people. I take time, and I make sure I take all the time I need so that I can figure out what I'm going to say and what I want from the conversation I'm going to have.
Anyway, I'm fixing things because soon, I'm going to be gone and I don't plan on looking back much. I don't want to leave things a train wreck incase I ever find myself back next to you, I want things to just be normal feeling; not like our friendship before but you should be able to talk to me. Maybe I'm selfish, needy, sassy and misunderstood, but hell, so is half of America.
I know I'm a good person, but I'm human and like any humans, I make plenty of mistakes.
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