So, I've Committed

This is it! I have committed to Sonoma State University in Nor Cal. I could not be more excited about making the beautiful wine country my new home! I am paying my dues today and will hopefully get my housing contract on Friday so that I can get a place that I like. I am very nervous about possible roommates being kind of weird but Sonoma is no Georgia Southern so hopefully most of the people that go there will be down to earth and laid back. As long as I have a place with my own room and bathroom though, I will be A OK. 

I have to make my way back to the lady doctor for a lower abdominal ultrasound... I am so excited (said no one ever). The good news is that I hopefully don't work at all this week and I can actually rest and stay off my feet, except when I am working out. I leave for California super soon and I am going to color my hair lighter, visit Sonoma, and see an old friend or two. Time off is exactly what I need right now after so much school work and work work. My 8 hour shift Saturday absolutely killed me, but I am recovering other than the fact that I am completely not reacting to my birth control.

For now I am watching Bates Motel and I am telling you now it is rather f'ed up. It is rather mind boggling and makes you feel super weird about things yet here I am like 4 episodes later still watching it. Maybe I should change back to Desperate Housewives or read Divergent... yeah Divergent sounds amazing actually.

xoxo

Good dayz... hooray

Today was a solid 9. I wasn't too exhausted this morning, I did amazing on my math quiz, decided by Plan B for college and had an amazing time at the gym. I did my work out that I found online; it's just a couple different ab exercises followed by cardio. Since I can not seem to find my running shoes, I did the "ski machine" or whatever it is, I call it hell. That thing is KILLER. I could honestly only do a solid 6 minutes on it and then I thought I was going to die; this was probably because I did a ton of squats before it and that is what I plan to blame it on, haha. Also, some cutie pie boys were at the gym today, although they did not look at me since I look like a hot mess, but that is okay since one day I will be a solid rock of hot body and it'll be okay. I ate pretty well today too, not too carb heavy, except for the awesome pop corn I am eating now but it's okay because it's gluten free. 

Well, this lucky chick has word at 5 and I smell like post-gym, blech. Gotta get my pretty on and sell my booty off.

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Back at it

Such a beautiful day outside today that I can't help but be in the best mood ever. My mom finally comes home today too! It has only been a weekend but I sure do miss her. I spent my weekend at my brothers house with him and Morgan and of course their pup LadyBug. Worked a solid 15 hours this weekend which is more than usual and I also got moved to FaShIoNiStA say whaaaaat. I'm so excited!! It adds some pressure for sure with the fact that my sales have to be on point but hey, I'm an Ooley and selling is in our blood. I've calmed down a bit about the whole "still not accepted to SFSU yet" thing and actually called about my ELM test scores since it has been a week since I have taken it and they haven't gotten back to me and turns out they won't be out until April 7.... talk about STRESS. I'm just nervous as to weather or not I "passed." Also regarding college, I think I have decided against my Journalism minor. May or may not want to go into something with fashion but of course none of the colleges I have been accepted to offer any type of fashion program so I will just have to remain in retail and move up in different areas as best I can.

Well, MOM JUST DROVE UP. GTG.

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Sittin, Waitin, Drinkin

Nothing seems to happen as time passes and lately I've been noticing all the wonders happening in other people's lives. Like my enemies getting into their dream colleges, or my ex's making a come back with a beautiful new girl while I sit here eating raw cookie dough. Recently, everything has been so uneventful. I have 0 trips planned, 0 boys I like, and 0 colleges (well, just my dream one) accepting me; so, I sit here. I've been stressing out about the whole yearbook not getting finished, and haven't done anything but work work work. I know I'm not falling behind, I'm just not where other people are and comparing myself to them will only make me feel worse about myself. It won't be long until I'm accepted to college and making plans, and this is only a minor rest time in my future planning.

I'll be okay. I am okay.

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Progress, Woop woop

So it has been about 2 months now that I have been working out some - what steady. Granted, I haven't seen as much progress as I want but I know it takes time. I am now getting more stern in my eating and what not and making sure that I am definitely making it to the gym almost every day of the week, with the exception of a day off every couple weeks to help my body recoup. Any who, I just figured I would post at least one photo of some progress, although I forgot to take a before picture. I know will make this my before and check again next month. I'm not anywhere near where I want but I have definitely noticed my stomach getting flatter and now I plan to focus on my back for a little bit.

Hope everyone is enjoying their beautiful Monday
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Oh the joys

Sitting around thinking about how I really want some food, but realizing that there are more thing to be excited about and interested in than "what's for dinner". Granted, my mind doesn't change right away and I'm still here wondering what flavor-filled foods will be for dinner. 

On another note, some interesting conversations were over head in the hall today and one of them just needs to be cleared up and hopefully it'll spread: TAKING BIRTH CONTROL DOES NOT MAKE YOU GAIN WEIGHT OR BREAK OUT. Such myths. People just say that because, well, I'm not really sure. I think they do to try and make it sound unappealing when really it is just a personal choice and thousands of women take it. Also, women do not only take it to prevent pregnancy; birth control can help with:

• Acne
• Painful periods
• Ovarian Cysts
• Life-threatening diseases

And SO MUCH MORE. Not every girl taking "the pill" is a slut, skank, or whatever you want to call them. Believe it or not, the lesser strength birth control can not even prevent pregnancy, just helps regulate the body.

So, a little lesson on birth control by yours truly,

xoxo

Changes shouldn't be made

While everyone is enjoying their Super Bowl games I'm enjoying Desperate Houswives and some self pampering. Nails are now painted and soon hair will be done for tomorrow. Over the weekend I have realized that I miss my old life, and by that I mean the times when I had friends to hang out with an boys to crush on. Now I seldom socialize and boys are totally out of the picture. So what do I need to change? Pretty much everything. Maybe it is the combination of absent self confidence and lack of social skills which both seemed to have vanished over the past year or so. I guess it could also stem from the failed relationships and failed attempts at a relationship and the multiple failed friendships. It used to all come so natural and now here I am spending every weekend alone and turning down to 1 or 2 friends that DO ask me to do something. So here are the 2 things I will try to change that I will attempt to be making:

1. Just say yes. I will not be allowing myself to say "no" every time to every thing. Even if I may not be in the mood for it I should just go do something with someone. That is the only way I will be making friends because sitting in my house on tumblr isn't really working. Granted, I won't be saying yes every time because we all know I love time alone and time to sleep.

2. Wear actual clothes to school. Maybe, just maybe, if I don't look like a homeless depressed bum people at school will talk to me. I have given up all attempt at looking descent over the past couple weeks and the few people that I did talk to at school, have distanced themselves. Now I don't think this is purposeful but it happens for sure and so if I put on a pair of jeans and an OK blouse then I hope to make some progress.

I guess its all stressing me out now because my mom is on my back about a boyfriend and let's be honest, after the last guy I dated I probably shouldn't be allowed to date anymore. Since my mom is in the dark about all that jazz, she is constantly pushing me into guys and awkwardly making moves for me which I should be able to do on my own. I don't need a wing man here.

xoxo