All over

So today was my last day ever of high school and sweet baby jesus I am so done! I've been thinking back over the past couple of years and everything that has molded me into who I am today and honestly don't regret things I have done, but wish I did let myself go a little more often. I guess the few times that I did let my hair down things went wrong, and so it made me feel as though I can't be that type of girl. This summer will be different though; I want to experience new things and maybe go a little out of my comfort zone sometimes. It has to be good for the soul to branch out, right? Even if I make some rather risky choices, they will be good learning experiences so that I can have myself under control in college. I don't want another boring summer, I have plenty of those under my belt. I just need to keep myself busy and do things that are actually fun instead of sitting at home all day every day eating more than my body can handle. I will spend some time reading in my eno and hanging out with the people that make my soul happy before going out to California. 

Here's to a crazy fun filled summer

xx

Lately it has been going

So the other day I went to the PrOoOoM and it was actually pretty good. I went with an old friend and we had a pretty good time. Getting dressed up was kind of fun, I'm not a heavy make-up wearing kind of girl. My dress started to fall and through the night I began to hate it. I did enjoy a couple of the pictures, they turned out really good. And seeing Neighbors was like the best decision of the night. I have been stressing just a little bit because of a new crush that I wish would just go away right...about...now. But boys must be the least of my worries since it never ends up working out anyway. Can't take anymore broken hearts and months spent wondering what I did wrong. I am strong enough to be on my own and don't need to be in any type of anything. Just going to spend the summer working on myself (both physical and emotional) and work work work. Also, do some crazy stuff with Kar before she leaves forever to go to Tech. 

So, summer goals to end this:

• independence
• intelligence
• financial stability
• cute face
• cute butt
• a little scary

xx

Trying Something New

So today I decided to try and become part of Seventeen Magazines Social group. I figured why not since I love fashion, social networking, and throwing my opinion out there into the open. My job in retail has shown me that I do truly love fashion and everything that it can say about a person, and I hate working in retail. Maybe it is just my job and my work that treats me as though I am worthless, but I know that I am a powerful and encouraging sales girl and make each of my costumers feel beautiful and flawless. 

On the bright side though, I do get to buy awesome clothes and put together super fun and happy outfits. Here is the OOTD; dElia*s Floral Pants and Forever 21 Pearl Beaded Tank

Starting to Make Changes

Lately I've been thinking of what I want and who I want to be and wow is there a lot of things I need to work on. I want to be a fun person, not have fear about alcohol and parties and meeting new people. I want to go out and do teenage things, kiss boys, go on dates, make friends, take day trips. I don't want to feel like an adult, like I feel now. I want to get in trouble for staying out past curfew and wear risky outfits that make me feel happy. I want to have a lot of friends and always something to do on a friday night. I want my mom to be glad that I'm not always home and let me go out and do whatever. So many things that are currently unchangeable due to my circumstances and must wait until college but I am so impatient. Some things will need to be changed now, and here I am working on them. 

Finally it's over

     So the time has come when the yearbook is pretty much done, THANK GOD. I don't know if I could have taken it any longer. Although there are still a couple pages left, I know nothing about them so I can't possibly finish them; plus, I finished a solid 11 spreads yesterday. 
     On the brighter side, I sent in my housing contract today! I am trying to get into the FIG housing which would be the best and most amazing thing ever, but I am also looking at the FYE as my back up, if they let me even put in a back up. The interesting thing is that they don't have us choose a roommate or even roommate search, they just pair us up. I kind of like that though because then I won't be in a rush to find someone and hope that they will fit well with me you know?
     I have been eating like a big pile of crap so I can't even feel my stomach it hurts so bad. Maybe I will go make a sandwich and that'll make me feel better.

xx

So, I've Committed

This is it! I have committed to Sonoma State University in Nor Cal. I could not be more excited about making the beautiful wine country my new home! I am paying my dues today and will hopefully get my housing contract on Friday so that I can get a place that I like. I am very nervous about possible roommates being kind of weird but Sonoma is no Georgia Southern so hopefully most of the people that go there will be down to earth and laid back. As long as I have a place with my own room and bathroom though, I will be A OK. 

I have to make my way back to the lady doctor for a lower abdominal ultrasound... I am so excited (said no one ever). The good news is that I hopefully don't work at all this week and I can actually rest and stay off my feet, except when I am working out. I leave for California super soon and I am going to color my hair lighter, visit Sonoma, and see an old friend or two. Time off is exactly what I need right now after so much school work and work work. My 8 hour shift Saturday absolutely killed me, but I am recovering other than the fact that I am completely not reacting to my birth control.

For now I am watching Bates Motel and I am telling you now it is rather f'ed up. It is rather mind boggling and makes you feel super weird about things yet here I am like 4 episodes later still watching it. Maybe I should change back to Desperate Housewives or read Divergent... yeah Divergent sounds amazing actually.

xoxo

Good dayz... hooray

Today was a solid 9. I wasn't too exhausted this morning, I did amazing on my math quiz, decided by Plan B for college and had an amazing time at the gym. I did my work out that I found online; it's just a couple different ab exercises followed by cardio. Since I can not seem to find my running shoes, I did the "ski machine" or whatever it is, I call it hell. That thing is KILLER. I could honestly only do a solid 6 minutes on it and then I thought I was going to die; this was probably because I did a ton of squats before it and that is what I plan to blame it on, haha. Also, some cutie pie boys were at the gym today, although they did not look at me since I look like a hot mess, but that is okay since one day I will be a solid rock of hot body and it'll be okay. I ate pretty well today too, not too carb heavy, except for the awesome pop corn I am eating now but it's okay because it's gluten free. 

Well, this lucky chick has word at 5 and I smell like post-gym, blech. Gotta get my pretty on and sell my booty off.

xx