Back at it

Such a beautiful day outside today that I can't help but be in the best mood ever. My mom finally comes home today too! It has only been a weekend but I sure do miss her. I spent my weekend at my brothers house with him and Morgan and of course their pup LadyBug. Worked a solid 15 hours this weekend which is more than usual and I also got moved to FaShIoNiStA say whaaaaat. I'm so excited!! It adds some pressure for sure with the fact that my sales have to be on point but hey, I'm an Ooley and selling is in our blood. I've calmed down a bit about the whole "still not accepted to SFSU yet" thing and actually called about my ELM test scores since it has been a week since I have taken it and they haven't gotten back to me and turns out they won't be out until April 7.... talk about STRESS. I'm just nervous as to weather or not I "passed." Also regarding college, I think I have decided against my Journalism minor. May or may not want to go into something with fashion but of course none of the colleges I have been accepted to offer any type of fashion program so I will just have to remain in retail and move up in different areas as best I can.

Well, MOM JUST DROVE UP. GTG.

xx

Sittin, Waitin, Drinkin

Nothing seems to happen as time passes and lately I've been noticing all the wonders happening in other people's lives. Like my enemies getting into their dream colleges, or my ex's making a come back with a beautiful new girl while I sit here eating raw cookie dough. Recently, everything has been so uneventful. I have 0 trips planned, 0 boys I like, and 0 colleges (well, just my dream one) accepting me; so, I sit here. I've been stressing out about the whole yearbook not getting finished, and haven't done anything but work work work. I know I'm not falling behind, I'm just not where other people are and comparing myself to them will only make me feel worse about myself. It won't be long until I'm accepted to college and making plans, and this is only a minor rest time in my future planning.

I'll be okay. I am okay.

xx

Progress, Woop woop

So it has been about 2 months now that I have been working out some - what steady. Granted, I haven't seen as much progress as I want but I know it takes time. I am now getting more stern in my eating and what not and making sure that I am definitely making it to the gym almost every day of the week, with the exception of a day off every couple weeks to help my body recoup. Any who, I just figured I would post at least one photo of some progress, although I forgot to take a before picture. I know will make this my before and check again next month. I'm not anywhere near where I want but I have definitely noticed my stomach getting flatter and now I plan to focus on my back for a little bit.

Hope everyone is enjoying their beautiful Monday
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Oh the joys

Sitting around thinking about how I really want some food, but realizing that there are more thing to be excited about and interested in than "what's for dinner". Granted, my mind doesn't change right away and I'm still here wondering what flavor-filled foods will be for dinner. 

On another note, some interesting conversations were over head in the hall today and one of them just needs to be cleared up and hopefully it'll spread: TAKING BIRTH CONTROL DOES NOT MAKE YOU GAIN WEIGHT OR BREAK OUT. Such myths. People just say that because, well, I'm not really sure. I think they do to try and make it sound unappealing when really it is just a personal choice and thousands of women take it. Also, women do not only take it to prevent pregnancy; birth control can help with:

• Acne
• Painful periods
• Ovarian Cysts
• Life-threatening diseases

And SO MUCH MORE. Not every girl taking "the pill" is a slut, skank, or whatever you want to call them. Believe it or not, the lesser strength birth control can not even prevent pregnancy, just helps regulate the body.

So, a little lesson on birth control by yours truly,

xoxo

Changes shouldn't be made

While everyone is enjoying their Super Bowl games I'm enjoying Desperate Houswives and some self pampering. Nails are now painted and soon hair will be done for tomorrow. Over the weekend I have realized that I miss my old life, and by that I mean the times when I had friends to hang out with an boys to crush on. Now I seldom socialize and boys are totally out of the picture. So what do I need to change? Pretty much everything. Maybe it is the combination of absent self confidence and lack of social skills which both seemed to have vanished over the past year or so. I guess it could also stem from the failed relationships and failed attempts at a relationship and the multiple failed friendships. It used to all come so natural and now here I am spending every weekend alone and turning down to 1 or 2 friends that DO ask me to do something. So here are the 2 things I will try to change that I will attempt to be making:

1. Just say yes. I will not be allowing myself to say "no" every time to every thing. Even if I may not be in the mood for it I should just go do something with someone. That is the only way I will be making friends because sitting in my house on tumblr isn't really working. Granted, I won't be saying yes every time because we all know I love time alone and time to sleep.

2. Wear actual clothes to school. Maybe, just maybe, if I don't look like a homeless depressed bum people at school will talk to me. I have given up all attempt at looking descent over the past couple weeks and the few people that I did talk to at school, have distanced themselves. Now I don't think this is purposeful but it happens for sure and so if I put on a pair of jeans and an OK blouse then I hope to make some progress.

I guess its all stressing me out now because my mom is on my back about a boyfriend and let's be honest, after the last guy I dated I probably shouldn't be allowed to date anymore. Since my mom is in the dark about all that jazz, she is constantly pushing me into guys and awkwardly making moves for me which I should be able to do on my own. I don't need a wing man here.

xoxo

Say hey, it's a snow day

As excited as everyone is about the snow, I find myself not on their level. Not much about my day differs from there being snow outside except the fact that the mall closed early so even if I got called in I didn't have to work, so that was a plus. While everyone was out playing in the snow taking pictures with their BFFs I took my kitten out to play for the first time in snow and she loved/hated it but she was cute and that is all that matters. And the fact that we don't have school tomorrow is eh, I'll just sit here and waste yet another night and push my homework of to tomorrow.. like I always do anyway. With my down time I have been looking at things I would want for my birthday. I already ordered part 1 of my gift from my dad and now looking for a part 2 is so hard, I mean choosing the duffel was painful enough. I would love nothing more than a shopping spree but we all know dad and he hates how much I shop in the first place so he would never feed the so called "addiction".

Meanwhile, I am texting my stepmom and I brought up the wedding and she asks me for my ideas and next thing I'm sending her like a layout of my ideas. I'm pretty sure I have put a ton more thought into this then she has at all. I have dress ideas, venues, colors, EVERYTHING.

I guess for the night I will watch Hart of Dixie, PLL, and do yearbook stuff. Yay for the life of an editor.

xoxo

Funny thing about that

To have your mother send out a mass text to 20 people about senior letters was to be expected. God forbid you didn't get as many letters are someone else, so instead you will beg for them. Not only are you asking way in advance but you are sending out a bragging text that fails to mention your failed friendships, incapability to forgive, the fact that your dad did most of your projects, and many other things. Also, the fact that it says you are "graduating with honors" you aren't even on the honor roll with the top 120 students but little does any one else know that. For your sake, you should just be glad that I am not walking at graduation otherwise some very rude words would be yelled after your name.

xoxo